Shailene Woodley is opening up more about her split from ex-fiancé Aaron Rodgers, calling their relationship “beautiful” but a “toxic situation.”

“I haven’t shared much about my relationship with Aaron because it always makes me cry,” the actress told Outside magazine. “It was not right. But it was beautiful.”

The New York Jets quarterback, 41, and Woodley, 33, secretly started dating during the pandemic. Yahoo Entertainment confirmed in February 2022 that the couple had ended their engagement. They were intermittently spotted together in the weeks that followed and eventually ended things for good.

“I had a really awful, traumatic thing happen in early 2022,” Woodley recalled. She said she experienced “depression,” “anxiety” and “complete soul detachment.”

“I felt like I lost my soul, my self, my happiness, my joy,” she said, explaining that she stayed in a “toxic situation” because she was empathizing with “someone else.”

Woodley, who said she’s empathetic “to a fault,” said her empathy kept her “in this loop of feeling everything for everyone.” The actress “knew” she “was depressed when I looked at a tree and felt nothing.”

“That was the lowest low of my life,” she said.

The Killer Heat star was depressed for about six months and credits her best friend and stylist, Kris Zero, with helping her out of that dark period.

“We’d go surf, and for ten minutes that day I thought life could be OK again. Then the depression would come back and she’d go, ‘We’re volunteering at the horse ranch!'” Woodley said.

The environmentalist previously called her and Rodgers’s split the “darkest, hardest time in my life.” Neither star has specifically said why they broke up; however, the public’s interest in their relationship took Woodley by surprise.

“It honestly never really hit me that millions of people around the world were actually watching these things and paid attention to them.

Then, I dated somebody in America who was very, very famous,” she told Porter magazine last year. “It was the first time that I’d had a quote-unquote ‘famous’ relationship, and I watched [the] scrutiny, opinions, the desire for people to know my life and his life and our life — it just felt violating in a way that, before, it was fun.”