Red Sox

“I had my rifle and I had a bullet and I pulled the trigger and the gun clicked but nothing happened.”

Red Sox outfielder Jarren Duran said he tried to kill himself during the 2022 season.

The admission comes during the fourth episode of the upcoming Netflix documentary “The Clubhouse: A Year With the Red Sox,” according to multiple reports. The documentary is scheduled to be released on Tuesday.

In it, Duran talks about sitting his room and attempting to shoot himself. The attempt failed.

“I got to the point where I was sitting in my room,” Duran said. “I had my rifle and I had a bullet and I pulled the trigger and the gun clicked but nothing happened.”

“But I took it as a sign of, like, all right, I might have to be here for a reason,” he added. “So that’s when I started to look myself in the mirror. After the gun didn’t go off, I was, like, ‘All right, well like, ‘Do I wanna be here or do I not wanna be here?’”

Duran said the pressure that came with playing for the Red Sox helped contribute to anxious feelings. He felt like there was a dark cloud hanging over him, he said, and it was easier to see the negative things than the positive ones.

“I would think every day, ‘I can’t [expletive] do this,’ ” he said. “I couldn’t deal with telling myself how much I sucked every [expletive] day. Like I was already hearing it from fans and, like, what they say to me. It’s like, I haven’t told myself 10 times worse than that in the mirror. That was, like, a really tough time for me.”

Red Sox president Sam Kennedy issued a statement that included a message of support for Duran.

“Jarren’s decision to share his story is an act of courage that reaches far beyond baseball,” Kennedy said. “By opening up, he’s showing others who may be struggling that they’re not alone and that asking for help isn’t just OK, it’s essential.

“Every member of this organization continues to stand with him,” Kennedy continued. “He has our deepest admiration, he’s always had our full support, and we’re incredibly fortunate to have him as part of our team.”

Duran, 28, rebounded from his struggles. He made his first All-Star team last year, was named MVP of the All-Star game, and led the American League in triples.

The breakout season was not without controversy. He was suspended two games for yelling a homophobic slur at a fan. He apologized, served his time, and returned to the team. The league also warned Duran about wearing a shirt that read “F– ’em” on the front multiple times.

On the field, it was the most productive season of Duran’s career. He played in 160 of 162 games, hit .285, clubbed 21 home runs and had 75 RBI.

League commissioner Rob Manfred told Peter Abraham of The Boston Globe that Duran’s decision to share his story was courageous.

“Providing comprehensive mental health support for our players is a responsibility that Major League Baseball and all of our Clubs take very seriously. We commend Jarren Duran for sharing his story of perseverance,” Manfred said.

“Through the courage of Jarren and other players, we are able to use our platform to demonstrate the importance of mental health awareness and communication to the fans of our national pastime.”